I can't help but smile when I think about this day two years ago and I would like to share why.
When Randy and I began dating, we were very careful with each other. We were intentional in our relationship. We were so intentional that at one point, we talked about saving our first kiss for our wedding day. This was also one more way that we could avoid temptations.
Two years ago today, Randy was at my house, helping to fix up my house before my roommates moved in. We were in my basement, pulling out the fireplace. He was considering leaving for the evening. I was hugging him, my head on his chest and looking towards the carpet. He pulled my chin up and I tried to pull away. He was persistent. He leaned in and kissed me. It wasn't that I didn't want the kiss- I clearly did. I was trying to protect us and I couldn't any longer. Sometimes feelings and hormones get the best of you. I kissed him and I kept kissing him for a good portion of the evening. From the moment our lips locked, we were like magnets. I always wanted to kiss him. Always. At that point, neither of us had said "I love you" but I think both of us knew it in our hearts and this was a heartfelt expression of love. The "I love you" came mere days later. I was grinning like an idiot the following day and he was too.
Sometimes, it's very small things that fill our hearts with joy. There were small things that showed Randy that he was breaking down my walls. These were moments when he could tell without a doubt that things were different.
As we were planning our wedding, there was a time when it became a serious question as to whether we would have the public first kiss since I struggle with PDA. Randy knew it and he insisted he would be okay with whatever I decided. Ultimately, I decided to move forward with it because this was the wedding he wanted. I wanted to give him everything he desired for this wedding and deep down, I knew he wanted this even if he wouldn't say it aloud. Marriage is full of compromises and this was the first of many for us.
I wouldn't change the fact that we waited 6 months for our first kiss. I think he would say the same. I can honestly say that I enjoyed every single one of his kisses and I miss them dearly.
I have three photos of us kissing from our wedding. They are not the greatest shots but I am going to share one with you today as I sit back and remember that day and that moment. I remember that kiss that filled my entire body with butterflies and for whatever reason, I wanted to share this with you since it is such a special memory to me.
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