Today I received the long awaited sign!
Randy and I had many discussions about end of life and life after death. In one conversation, we said we would send a sign when one of us had made it to the other side and all was well. We decided we would send a bird to our bedroom window.
On the last full day of Randy's life, during my 3 very coherent hours with him, I brought this up. I asked him, "Do you remember when we said we would send the sign?" He shook his head. He did not remember. "We said we would send a bird to the bedroom window. What bird are you going to send me to let me know that you have made it to the other side and all is well?" I asked him. He took a minute and then said, "A yellow canary." I smiled. I knew why he did that. I see so many cardinals, bluejays, robins, woodpeckers and more. Canaries are not a bird I ever see near my home. This was going to be a sign that I knew without a doubt would be from him. I didn't have the same train of thought and I told him that I would send him a bluejay. At the time, we didn't see many near my home but now I do.
After I lost Randy, I looked out that window relentlessly, waiting for that bird to show up. With each passing day, week and month, I was starting to feel hopeless. Would this bird ever come to serve as that sign that he promised me?
The watch came to a halt when the tree that once stood in front of our bedroom window was taken down last month. I was devastated. How could I receive this bird to our bedroom window without that tree?
On our anniversary, I was at my parents' house and I saw a yellow bird that flew to this bird feeder/bird house that was nearby. I thought that maybe that was it. Maybe he followed me to my parents' house. I accepted it as the sign because I lost faith that it could come to our bedroom window.
Well, Randy proved me wrong!
Today, I was by Kiwi's cage, taking a video of him being silly when suddenly, his attention goes to the window. I asked, "What are you looking at?" and I look over and see it.
Kiwi spotted it!
I freaked out. I began shaking and crying. I could not believe it!
This tree is on the side of my house but some branches do extend near our bedroom window.
Here is the yellow canary to our bedroom window that he promised.
He is on the other side. He's happy. He is healthy. He is restored. All is well.
Thank you for this beautiful sign, Randy!
I love you. I miss you.
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